If something was really important, fate made sure it came back to you and gave you another chance- The Truth about Forever

I'm sitting here and all I can think of is how much just miss being little. Everything was so easy when we were young. I miss the way I used to look at the older kids and watch as they lived their lives. I thought they were so fabulous with their leather jackets, freedom to roam the globe, no crap attitude, and ability to fall in love so easily with no fears. I couldn't wait to be one of them, so that I could be one of them and have all the little kids look at me in the same way. I feel like I haven't lived up to the person I sent my sights on being. Like I haven't been the older sister that I should have, the daughter that my parents raised or the best friend I've always prided myself on being. But, I know that I'm finally getting there. I feel proud of the person I'm moving towards. I know that someday I'm going to see the world, have a no crap attitude and be madly in love again. It's all in fate and I am a patient person even though I wasn't as a child. I know what I deserve and I know what I want. Someday I know I'm going to have it all and I'll finally be the person I always dreamed I would be. I know I say it weirds me out when you say that I'm momish but at the same time I'm proud because someday I'm going to be a mom and I know I'm going to be a good one because I may not be perfect, but I want to see other people succeed, and find happiness and have the life that I had the privilege of having, with parents and a family that are so accepting and loving. I know I can be that so thank you for helping me to see that I'm on my way to who I want to be. Fate is the only thing that makes any sense to me. Everything will all work out the way it's supposed to, and eventually we can all find something to be happy about. Fate works in mysterious ways but I trust that I know a little bit about how it might end and I know it'll all be okay someday. Someday it will all make sense. Just try to have a little faith. Babbling again.

LOVE and good luck in your own futures. Peace and Love to all even to those who don't think they are undeserving. We all deserve to feel loved.

matt wertz- carolina

I always just thought we lasted forever....

You just make everything better. I don't know if you ever really understand that, but you just do. Someday I'm going to lose you and I don't know if I'm going to be able to deal, no matter how many times I watch that movie. And I'm scared. I know it's not stuff you should be thinking about..but it's all I think about when sad music comes on. I love you. Thank you for everything you've done for me.

I know..moving forward isn't the same as moving on....well at least right now. Jesus fuck. Here's the thing..every time I listen to that stupid song I wonder if you were ever even mine. Like were you ever truly mine or were you always just someone else's...I don't know what I'm really saying here it's more like just me rambling on like usual. I wish signs could be read by people other than the person who was sending them out, because then sometimes we could all just KNOW. we could know what the hell everyone else was thinking. I'm sorry but she doesn't deserve this and I'm a little tired of you messing around with her head because honestly she's a good person. Yea, maybe she makes mistakes and she may act like a huge bitch and she may also be a shitty best friend sometimes but she's MY BEST FRIEND and if you even think that you can just walk right back in and mess up everything she's worked so hard to get past well you've got another thing coming buddy. I am not going to stand by and watch you rip my best friends heart into shreds all over again., If you want her it's gunna be WORK and i'm not talking about trying really hard to do nice things for her nd make her feel special just because you fucked up. No, I'm talking about the fights that you're gunna have to stick by her through even when you're arguing against her because the reason she's fighting you is because she doesn't trust you yet, but she desperately wants to be able to trust you again because what you had no matter how long meant EVERYTHING to her and if we're being totally honest here you NEVER forget you're first love, and it's never REALLY over so let's not beat around the bush. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. I'm not saying it has to be right now or soon in fact because god KNOWS she's gunna wait for you. She can't picture herself with anyone else because THERE ISN'T anyone else. You are the person she loves and the person she KNOWS she wants to spend the rest of her life with so you make sure you take your time and don't come around breaking her heart unless you plan to put the pieces back together as a couple in the future. But even more...I don't know if she can handle this. I don't know if my best friend is strong enough to forget you and move on, because fate is fate and fate made her fall for you and not someone else. Fate decided you were the one and not someone who you or she or anyone else might think could or is better for her, because you can't fight the way you feel. And she's in love with you. Has been right from the start, and so to ask her to let go means that you are asking her to let go of the one thing in her life that she is more sure of than anything else. So I'm not going to tell her and neither are you. All I'm asking is that you start learning about you so that someday you will eventually be an US. Love is all that matters in this world and without it you feel like you're just drowning. So I'm not asking you to be perfect and I'm not saying things aren't going to be rough and things aren't going to be hard work but everything worth living for is hard work. Love is teh best thing in my opinion...and oddly enough..it's my best friends too. We're old souls. We can wait because we've been waiting for someone like you to come around for a long time. It doesn't matter how young we are. When it's love you just know. Have a good day. All my love.

he steals my bed. he steals my ramen. He pushes me off my own bed. Someone please save me from my roommate from hell.