Oddly enough: Hey Stephen by Taylor swift inspired this one so if you’re gunna read it might as well listen to it while you do. Maybe you’ll get it and maybe you won’t; it doesn’t really matter. Either way it’s what made me feel the way I did while I was writing.
I've always been one to run away from love. I’ve also always been a firm believer in True Love, The One and anyone can fall in love even when you least expect it. But, for the past 20 years I’ve been running from every bit of romance or love interest that has crossed my path, and it’s taken me 20 years to figure out that to find love you have to lose everything just to gain it all. You don’t have to lose yourself, but you do have to give in to all the feelings: good or bad, and let loose. I have been talking about The One and wishing for the perfect relationship ever since I can remember, but there is no such thing. There’s nothing perfect. You have to find perfection in the imperfections. Without this ability, what you’re waiting for is something you’ll be waiting the rest of your life for. No one out there is going to perfectly fit every piece of you and ya know what? You may have to listen to hours of music you don’t like or you may have to fold the laundry because static freaks them out or whatever, but maybe they make you CD’s of music they know you’ll love or they rub your feet when you’ve had a rough day or bring you lunch at work just because. It doesn’t mean you have to drop your standards or stop looking for The One but maybe it means opening your eyes just a little bit wider and opening your heart up even if it means it might get broken a bunch of times. Love is out there and you can search for it or you can let it come to you, but either way love is work. It doesn’t just fall together and stay wonderful forever. You’re going to fight and you’re going to get on each other’s nerves and your going to get scared of the commitment and you’re going to want to run away sometimes. But you’re also gunna spend all night under the covers sharing silly stories from your past, and you’ll have great make-up sex, and you’ll cuddle when you watch movies and get all dressed up to go out with friends just because you’re bored of dinners where you eat the same thing because neither of you is exactly the best cook in the world and you’ll have a blast. But, you can never forget that nothing stays the same forever. That the two of you have to let one another grow individually as well as grow together. Love and live is always changing and you can morph right along with it. It’s nothing to be afraid of, because it’s natural to want to change and to find new interests and parts of you that you yourself didn’t even know existed. You just have to open yourself to the new parts of you and of everyone else too because that’s how you learn about yourself and about other people. Learning is the foundation for everything and without it we cut ourselves of to life. So it’s time to stop running from love, stop narrow mindedly searching for love and accept that if it’s truly meant to be it’ll happen, no pressure for me or anyone else. Love simply happens. Be open to it, it’s what makes us alive.
