I am SO TIRED of waiting around for people to finally realize what is right in front of them. You all are fucking stupid. Just stop, dont think and fucking do it...please. I am telling you to fucking take her away. Just take her. She wants you too. So don't be fucking dumb ass and please just for once do what I'm actually asking. I can't take the waiting. No one friggin can, so just do what we all know is coming, get it over with and do the next natural thing that we ALSO all know is coming. JUST PLEASE. Take he the fuck outta my life. There's no place for her here anymore, and just GIVE ME MY FUCKING FRIEND BACK.

"No good deed goes unpunished." - if only you actually understood the significance of that quote.

Elle

I HATE when people tell you how you are feeling or should feel. It drives me up a wall. I'm sitting here with one of my better friends here at Salem State, and she's telling me that because I have an uncontrollable crush on a guy that is now a part of our staff that I'm acting like I am in 8th grade. Well, I'm sorry that I'm learning how to get over people instead of clinging to them for life and never finding happiness. It's ridiculous. I'm sorry I work differently from you. I NEED to get over her, and he DOES look like HEATH LEDGER. So, sorry to disappoint, but I DO like him, even though he smokes more than i would ever like and he has a few scars on his body, and he has "stupid" facial hair according to you. I'm sorry but you are just going to have to get over the fact that it's over and it's never going to happen again, and I'm finally getting back to the REAL ME.

So thank you very much.

LOVE LOVE LOVE,

your long time boy crazy pal,

Elle

I am so tired of people not following through and making stupid ass excuses for their reasons for being a shitty person. DO NOT say that people don't give you enough notice if every time they DO, you find a way NOT to make it anyway. I am so tired of being the person who TRIES to make everything work and having it NEVER work out. I am tired of my BEST FRIEND never coming to visit me even for the DAY because she doesn't like to drive in MA. I make the fucking effort to get there when I can, and I HATE paying the amount of money that I do, but I get there. I am so tired of playing these games with everyone. I wish people would just...just not get my hopes up just so they can crush them.

Love,

Elle