BABY!!!!!

The baby is on it's way...literally. She's hitting contractions between 1 and 2 minutes now. I'm going to pee my pants. Medita says not to and that as a 20 year old I should be able to control my own secretions....but HOLY SHIT....there is about to be a baby BOY in my family. We don't have boys in my family...and I am SO EXCITED!!!!! My mom is on her way out to MN in the next two days to help with the baby and give Ardeshir and Smace some sleep and time together after she shoves this human out of her vagina...I cannot believe that those things actually come out of that little hole..I mean I know it gets bigger obviously...but WOW....lol Okay, just wanted you all to know I'm pretty much guaranteed a nephew on this July 4th 2010 and I am so excited. I wonder if Ardeshir will pass out... haha. okay...that was mean. ANYWAYS...

Okay trivia time: who's birthday did we always celebrate with and american flag cake made by yours truly with of course when I was younger help from my mom and sisters even though his birthday was in May strictly because the 4th was his favorite holiday?

Answer... My Grandpa Randall

; it's like this baby is carrying a piece of him back to us.

I feel incredibly blessed. Thank you

It's one hundred and nine degrees in this crowded room

No room to breathe with walls as cold as a gallery
This is no place for me
Such hard faces in smoke
The smell lingers in my clothes
It's a bad night to be alone
But that's the way it goes

And I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
And you rest your bones
Somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home

who do you think you are?

runnin’ ’round leaving scars

collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

it took so long just to feel alright
remember how to put back the light in my eyes
i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed
cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back
you don’t get to get me back

stop listening to this sappy song and start listening to the boys we love so much. I know he hurt you and the pain some days is unbearable because all you want is for the love you promise to be returned....but the right guy is going to return that love and more. He's not worth this much pain, no one is. Love isn't supposed to be this hard. I love you now move forward with your life and try to leave him behind because he doesn't even deserve you.