If love were enough

I know this is so illogical and completely out of the blue for me but I hate these mind games I play with myself, and I hate wondering and I just fucking hate not knowing for sure. I don't even know if you still read this anymore and part of me hopes like hell you do, but another part of me is still incredibly wounded and prays you never read this pathetic throwback in my life...but if by chance you do read this and I'm not going crazy and you are speaking to me through your fucking page...please just once say my name so I know it's not someone else you're talking to. And if it isn't please god save me from this humiliation that I'm about to put myself through for absolutely no reason other than I must have seriously lost my mind...and if it's not please don't contact me again because this needs to stop. I need to completely let go of everything; on even the smallest hope. Because right now I'm almost there but if I'm wrong in doing that...wrong in completely letting go them I need you to say something because I can't wait for you any longer.

It's really such a simple question

Why'd you call me today with nothing new to say?
You pretend it's just hello, but you know what it does to me to see your number on the phone.
Now tell me, what do you want? What do you want? What do you want from me?
Are you tryin' to bring back the tears or just the memories?
You keep takin' me back, takin' me back where I've already been.
When we hang up it's almost like I'm losing you again.
Can't you see? So what do you want, what do you want from me?

I get so tired of living like this.
I don't have the time, neither do my friends,
To stay up at night, to pull me through,
And to find the things to keep my mind off of you.

So, now tell me, what do you want? What do you want? What do you want from me?
Did you call to say you've found someone and I'm a used- to- be.
You keep takin' me back, takin' me back where I've already been.
If you've moved on why does it feel like I'm losing you again?
Can't you see? So what do you want? What do you want from me?

What do you want me to say?
That I'm content? That I'm on the fence? That I wish you would've stayed?
Oh baby what do you want, what do you want, what do you want from me?
To come here and make love tonight cause you're feelin' lonely.
You keep takin' me back, takin' me back where I've already been.
When we wake up and say goodbye it's like I'm losing you again.
Can't you see? So what do you want, what do you want from me?
What do you want, what do you want from me?

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You make my heart hurt in ways I wish you didn't.