Lions make you brave

Alright here's the deal. I think about you ALL the time. Like literally most of my day is consumed with thinking about you and wondering how your life is going and if you're okay and happy. But here's the other thing: I already know all about your life whether I want to or not. Because whether we're actually friends or not I am still very much friends with people who talk to you or see you or know you, and therefore I am very much aware of what is currently going on. I just wish I was hearing it all from you instead. And I MISS you like crazy. I want to be a part of your life again but I'm stubborn as hell and so are you so I'm not sure exactly how this is going to work, seeing as I've been working up the courage to tell you that I miss you for a little over a 2 months now... and I'm no closer now than I was 2 months ago. I just want you to be happy more than anything and if that means that I don't get to be part of your life, I guess I can deal with that because I'd rather know you're happier. But I just wanted you to know...even if it's through this totally impersonal and ugly technological way you meant so much to me and I was really lucky to have you in my life for the short time I did and well, I still love you very much. I'm also craving the smell of dark room chemicals and it only makes me miss you more, because I know that was your favorite part too even though we complained about smelling like that all the time anyways. You're who I'm praying for tonight. <3

me

So here's the thing... I wish you could follow me too because most of the time when I disappear like that I'm thinking about you. But I really like that we can sit in a car together and there's no need for talking. Just simply enjoying each other's silent company. I missed you a lot. I'm glad you're home now and I'll be sad when you leave.

Butterflies makin me tingle

Knowing that you are on your way home to me right now after I haven't seen you in a week because you've been on one of your military retreats is giving my the worst butterflies I've had in my entire life, and that can only mean one thing; I'm invested in this. I want to be invested in this and in you. I want to be invested in us. I like that there is an "us". I love how incredible you make me feel; like I could touch the moon and tap each of the stars. I didn't think I was ever going to feel this way again, and yet like most things here you are proving me wrong. I've missed you so much and oh...you're walking in right now, so I'm going to go kiss you. =)