So, were sitting together in your room. With our beds pushed together and you sitting on the floor in front of your computer while I sit at my desk typing this. I just took a shower and now we're listening to some music. The song that just came on is Alexi Murdoch- orange sky. This is a totally new song to me, yet I can still find a tie to you and me in it. I want to be whole again. I'm tired of feeling only half full because I need my other half. I had my other half for a while and then it was lost and stolen and then buried deep and far away in another world. I know it's trying to find it's way back to me, but sometimes, I wonder if it will just stop where it was stolen and stay. The future used to be my biggest fear, but that has now taken it's place. Just as I am scared that someday she will take my place and I won't even know it happened. I don't want to be lost forever, but sometimes I feel like I'm going to be. I'm terrified of the amount of me that you encompass. I am scared and thrilled by the love we could have, that we have had, and what I sometimes glimpse of what we do have. I want you to know that I do in fact never have a time when I don't want to kiss you. There are times I doubt the intention of your kisses, but never the less, there has yet to be a time in which I do not want to feel the warmth of your kiss and the heat that emits itself only to me in that moment. Don't worry love, that is my job and mine alone.

Love F&A,

ELLE

Please, just please tell me whats bothering you. Because I don't understand how it can be so good, and I leave for only a little bit and already we're back to fighting about something and i don't know where it went wrong. I don't remember doing anything wrong. I'm taking PT tomorrow so that you don't have to worry about Angie being in your car because you don't like her. I brought you home Chinese food that I offered because I love you. And I have done nothing but try and help you since I got back. So thanks a bunch AGAIN for treating me like shit, for basically telling me to leave your stuff alone and oh btw, thanks for dinner. Well then thank you too. I hate you right now. I hate having these arguments because you can't actually tell me what the fuck is up. So tell me to fuck off again., I really appreciate it. I love you too.

Elle

Till the world goes black

okay, here it goes. I watch one tree hill not only because I love the show, but because the music on it always seems to be able to relate to my life in some way. but for once, I thought one thing when looking up this song and all I ended up doing when I read the lyrics was cry. I just sat here and cried because all I could think of was you. This is probably crazy and it scared the shit out of me...you know my biggest fear is the future, but this well this song is my new anthem. This song is the song that gives me hope. It's the song that was my sign. The sign. The one that I have been waiting for to help me understand, to help me get through this, because I couldn't understand. What I keep forgetting about this all is that its not about me. Its about you. That's the whole point of this and this is why this song is really for you. I love you. Till the world goes black.

Elle


Jack Savoretti- Wonder
tell my stories to the ones i love
hide my fears from those who don't
i've been tryin' to change my ways for days
you keep sayin' that i won't
old songs on a late night
there's just too much on my mind
my love is a true love, but my hearts as cold as ice

you like what you see when you're looking at me
cause you think that i do what i i do for you.
don't you wonder why
the word that i breath is the word that i need
and the song that i sing don't mean anything
don't you wonder why it's always been this way

all our innocence is gone
if you like i'll take the blame for all the things that you have done
my songs on a cold night, i can't get you out my mind
your love is a true love, but you'll never on my side

you like what you see when you're looking at me
cause you think that i do what i do for you.
don't you wonder why
the word that i breath is the word that i need
and the songs that i sing don't mean anything
don't you wonder why? why


old songs on a late night, there's just too much on my mind
my love, is a young love but i know we'll get this right