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Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I'm glad we're in this moment
Being with you right now, the way we are at this exact moment....this is what makes everything else worth it. I'm so glad we are who we are and that we can enjoy the good times that we have together because we know how precious they are. You make me incredibly happy and bubbly and it's hard for me to stay angry with you or not want to feel your lips pressing softly and then more forcefully and urgently against my gladly receiving ones. It's hard not to find more and more ways to fall for you. I like it, because this can be fun and terrifyingly exciting and I missed it. I missed the way this feels. I'm glad we both are okay with who we are enough to be like this. It makes me happy, you make me incredibly happy. Thank you for just being you.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Her ghost haunts this TIME
You think you’re special? You think you’re different? You think you’re the only one who has ever walked out of my life claiming that I’m too fucked up for you to deal with never realizing that the reason everything fell apart wasn’t because of me, but because you can’t accept change? Or because you’re the one who’s fucked up becuase of everything and that I have done everything in my power to try and help; to make things easier on and for you, and yet ME, I’M the one whose FUCKED UP? No. I have my faults and I have never lied. I have never told you I was someone different than the person you see before you, so WHY do you think that I am her? Because I’m not, but no matter how many times I try to tell you that she and I are NOT the same person and that I will NOT do what she did to you…you won’t believe me until you forgive her for walking out on you. I have put up with A LOT from you. I have been there for you even when you pushed me away, and I have sat through conversations with you where you say that I’m fucked up and that you don’t know if you can do this anymore and that this relationship is taking a toll on you: and yet you have yet to realize that the reason it is so bad for you is because you haven’t let her go yet. You’re still waiting for her to come back and for things to be like they were. But it’s not going to happen, and even if it does, things will never be like they used to be. I’m so sorry she did what she did to you, and to me, but that has nothing to do with US and yet it has everything to do with us because her ghost still haunts the relationship I now have with you, and it’s ruined it because you let her take control of something that is no longer hers. So, I’m sorry you’re done with me. You meant a lot to me, more than most people these days do. I’m sorry you’re hurting so much and someday I hope that pain goes away.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
we all do this at least ONCE
I wanna be your last first kiss will
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life…”
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